I came from a family where education was prioritised and highly valued. In that sense I was ‘well educated’, graduating from a private school of high repute before going on to tertiary education. I was smart, capable and so, of course, it was assumed I would gain a degree of some sort. Without higher education, the potential of work was limited to the (unspoken, but implied) lesser jobs to which women without the piece of paper were relegated.
So I spent four quite enjoyable and fastidious years studying Natural Medicine, which covered all manner of aspects and approaches to health and wellbeing.
Straight out of college, I fell into work alongside some of Brisbane’s integrative GPs, where I began to gain a reputation as a practitioner who was dedicated, knowledgeable and very personable. Patients loved me, I got great results, and I made the GP’s work much easier with my knack for explaining whatever was going on and whatever was needed to support and motivate them.
In essence, I was very good at applying knowledge.
After a number of years however, I became restless, seeing that I only had half the answers I wanted to have. There were many shortfalls in both the medical world and Naturopathy; even combining the two (referred to as Integrative Medicine) didn’t feel like it was delivering what it could. So off I went to study Chinese Medicine. Another 3+ years of study, which I again threw myself into wholeheartedly, putting much of what I learnt into practice myself and becoming immersed in an understanding and an approach that seemed to fill so many of the gaps. Finally, I thought, I had all the answers.
Not long after came the birth of my son and some time off before heading back to work. But less than a year later I found myself burnt out, exhausted and experiencing a recurring case of pneumonia that seemed resistant to every intervention. The lack of resilience in my own health left me feeling disillusioned with my profession and all the knowledge I had accumulated, to the point that I essentially ‘retired’ myself from the profession. If I couldn’t even sort my own health out, what on earth was I doing with anyone else! The effort and drain of ‘helping people’ had become so acute that the mere thought of practising became abhorrent to me.
So, for all my ‘health’ education and my extensive knowledge and experience, I was not able to sustain a busy practice. My personal relationships were also struggling; then to top it off, I was at my wits end in trying to address what was a very debilitating illness.
It was at this point I met Serge Benhayon and began what has turned out to be the most profound educational and transformative experience of my life.
I can say that I learnt more about myself, life around me, my interactions and the patterns I engaged in with others in the next few years than I had ever come close to learning in nearly 8 years of tertiary study and 40+ years of life.
I learnt how to live in life without getting caught up in the drama of others around me; I learnt how to connect with myself and then foster and hold that connection. I learnt the difference between the love that comes from the connection and the emotional kind I had moulded my life around to that point.
I learnt how central this love was to my own healing and realised I had sought this from outside myself for so long.
I learnt how to restore my own sense of confidence and self-worth that was so unshakeable that I could no longer say yes to a relationship unless what was offered was equal to the love I felt for myself. Through this I learnt how to be in a relationship that was based on love and not on the dynamics that had been miserably played out previously.
I learnt what true responsibility was and that without it, I could never truly heal. I learnt that healing is to restore something that is already intact, and not a process of making us ‘better’ or different. I learnt that without my own healing, I had little to offer another that would support their healing.
I learnt about integrity, real integrity; an integrity that goes to our very core and is seen and felt in our every thought and movement – energetic integrity.
I learnt how to not give my power away – in fact, I learnt what my ‘power’ actually was.
I learnt what it means to be and feel like a woman, and not to live up to society’s ideals and beliefs. I learnt about my own delicateness; the tenderness and nurturing that are my most natural expression. I learnt to listen to my body and to connect to what is true for me. I learnt that my body’s communications are loud and broad, offering the most finely tuned navigation tool I could ever hope to find.
I learnt that I am connected to the Universe and hence I am part of something so much bigger and grander than I could ever have imagined. I learnt that I have a depth beyond the oceans and a wisdom I can access in the stillness of my breath.
This sounds like I have been given everything possible, and the fact is... I have!
What I learnt through Serge Benhayon enabled me to return to relationships with openness and real love. I experience a depth of relating to people that not only enriches my personal life, but every aspect of my professional life also.
I returned to work with renewed vitality and dedication, working well beyond any capacity I had before and with the ability to apply ALL that I live and know. So I have since worked some 8-10 years tirelessly in support of others and have yet to suffer an ill-health condition beyond the occasional common cold in that time.
Now I consider that testimony to a TRUE Education!